Reminders

Mostly I was going to blog about the kids and their antics but I was reminded yesterday of something else.


When I go to weddings I am reminded of vows that Brandon and I took and feel renewed when we leave.  I am reminded of that new love, and the sweetness of a new beginning for us.  I felt my mom and Mike's proudness as they watched us start life as full-fledged "independent" adults.  It was a really surreal experience and weddings are so awesome to remind me of that decision and those vows.

Unfortunately, deaths also remind me of untimely passing of my own dad.  In a moment of someone elses sadness I begin to relive all the sadness that I suffered.  I remember the day minute by minute and mile by mile as we drove as fast as we could.. all for nothing of course.  I am thankful that I had my family there to help us through a very difficult time.  It makes me so sad to think that anybody else would ever feel that same sadness. 

So I guess all I am saying is that other peoples memories make me relive mine.. happy and sad. The pain I feel for other people is so real. 

/self loathing and sadness for the day.